It's Good and It's Difficult

Difficult--
1) hard to do--requiring a lot of planning or effort to do, understand, or deal with
2) full of problems, trouble, or aspects that are hard to endure
3) hard to please or control
4) hard to convince or persuade

I finally am at a place where I can admit that having Jenny and the kids live with us is hard...it is difficult.  I've seen God do some incredible things in her life and in my life.  It's been fantastic getting to see the kids so much and being with them as they grow up--the joy of hearing Deacon learn new words and seeing how excited Kiz was to get Tiger Paws at school.  There have been some really really good things about them living with us.

But it has been difficult.  For the longest time, I thought that if I said that, if I admitted that this has been hard for me, that I was some how failing.  That my attitude was wrong or that I wasn't trying hard enough or something...some how, admitting the difficulty was a fail in my book.  But I did it.  I admitted it the other day and it makes things so much easier! 

I talked to a woman, the same woman who I talked with before, who is just a fantastic, Godly, wise, prayerful woman.  (Talking with her last time completely changed my life and how I live it at my house.  She is awesome!) And she told me that it is good that I can admit that this is hard because it doesn't mean I failed.  It is a healthy place to be.

So that is where I am.  Having them live with us has been good and it has been hard.  And saying that doesn't mean that I have failed or that something is wrong.  Things can be both good and hard.